Im A Sinner

Ya Allah,please forgive me.Im just a useless servant of yours.I fill my life with selfishness,egoism,cruelty and lies.I've never been anyone useful.I'm not needed by anyone,I only create difficulties and sadness for other people.My family and my loved ones.Im sinful Ya Allah.Please punish me with the most painful pain that you can ever give anyone Ya Allah.Please Ya Allah.You give me pain and the only pain.But please give the people I love happiness.No matter how much mistakes they make,please forgive them Ya Allah.Give them happiness and success.I don't mind ya Allah if you want to punish me as badly as you want,but no matter what pain or difficulty they face,please take it away.Cure their every sickness.Take away their every sadness.Put smiles on their faces Ya Allah.Bless my family,Siti Nur Syazwani and her family Ya Allah.Please Ya Allah.Please.I beg you.Give me difficulty,any pain but not them Ya Allah.Only you know what's in my heart Ya Allah.If all this while,whatever I do because I just wanna get name for myself,you punish me Ya Allah.You give me painful death Ya Allah.But if all I do just to make them smile and happy,you forgive all my mistakes Ya Allah.Please.Show me the right path Ya Allah.I want to be a better person.Please Ya Allah.Help guide me.You've send me the light,please don't take her away.Please don't take her away.If all this while,I've never sincerely love her,you destroy me now,if my intention is just to take advantage,you punish me with the most painful death Ya Allah.I beg you Ya Allah,don't ever give me any other girl because I don't want nor need anyone else.All I need is Syazwani Ya Allah.I promise you before and I'll promise you again that im never gonna love any other girl.Just her.You become my witness Ya Allah.I'm gonna keep this promise till my very last breath.Hel me change Ya Allah.I don't want to have to lie anymore.Help me Ya Allah.Open my heart.Show me the right way.To you,only to you that I bow,I love you Ya Allah.I love Syazwani,my family an her family.Till death I will.Amin.

Awak,I know you might not read my blog,but if you do,i just wanna say I'm really sorry for hurting you.I didn't meant to By.Trust me.I was just filled with sadness and anger.I was so disappointed with myself that I let my emotions take over me.Im sorry.I was such a jackass,a jerk,shouting at you back there.What was I thinking?Actually I needed you By,that's why I didn't want you to go.But I was too ego to say.Im sorry.By,no matter what,im gonna love you,only you.Thankyou for everything.