Im sorry

Baby,im sorry if you are angry about what happened last night.Its not that I didn't want to reply to your message or what.its just that my brother hid his phone and he didn't allow me to use it.Im really sorry.Actually yesterday I fell down and landed on my side.My leg now bengkak.Got one side like something jerking out.Another side of my leg pun ade.When i alek,i tros sms u.



Then this morning I still came down eventhough you told me 'Jangan buang current'.By,its not that I didn't hear what you said but I came to see you to say how very sorry i am.It was painful for me to walk that fast but i took the pain as a punishment for myself.By,if you are having bad mood towards your family,Im really sorry.I know I've caused much trouble fror you.Because of me,you have to face your parents.Im really sorry.Its not what I want.By,if you wanna let out your emotions to me,your anger or what,just feel free k.Hit me hard if you want to.I dont mind by.I'd rather be in pain as long as i see you are alright.

By,what you said is true by.And I understand what you say its because you love me and you don't want anything to happen to us.Thank you sayang.But its not that I don't want to go home.Actually,i come to your place selalu because its where i feel peace by,being close to you.When Im at home,im stressed up because I feel like everyone and everything is pressing on me.Im just disappointed with myself by.Sometimes i just can't be what they want me to.And failing to do something makes me in pain.Sometimes Im criticized,looked down at.Its really sad by when i try doing something,no one's there to see.But when I fall,make a mistake,everyone know.I just don't understand why it has to be like that always.By,its not that im pushing my responsibilities at home.But I just don't know how by.When I nak ajar my bro,he refuses to listen to me and in the end I jugak kene marah.Im trying hasd to please my family by,but its really disappointing when no one realises how hard i try.Thats why I try to avoid by not being at home and keeping myself bz outside.Im just afraid by that i fail,fail to be a good son and brother in their eyes.Everytime they criticize me,I still stand on eventhough its really painful inside.But I'll try by,I'll keep trying.All I want is the people i love to be happy.I'd rather pierce a knife through my heart,feel the deep pain,as long as I can see the people i love smile.

Awak,Im really sorry for everything.If im the cause of your problems,I promise i'll never forgive myself and i'll hurt myself.All i want is your hapiness.No matter what,I'll always love you and will always do till death come and take me away.