So stupid of me

By,im sorry.I know,I can never be a perfect person like you want.I make a lot of mistakes in the past.I do this and that.Everything is my fault.Me this and that.i even ruined my last chance.What a jackass I am?You are right.I banyak susahkan you.Im a life ruiner.A destroyer.But i try to change by,I learnt from my mistake.I do.I ask you,is it fair that Im punished like this just for forgetting?Im a normal human.I cant be perfect.I do make lots and lots of mistakes.But dont i deserve to be forgiven,just for my mistake as a man?I take it by,its difficult for you to just forgive.But,Ive hurt you alot.I know I keep asking for chances.Then I keep making mistakes.But trust me sayang,Im changing.Do i force you like what i did last time?Ade ke I pentingkan diri I sendiri?Im sorry that I menyusahkan you.I know what jerk I am.I love u and I really do syg.If you know what's in my heart,you'll see by.I love you.im willing to give everything,even give up my life just for you dear.i know how much you regret meeting me.But i dont by.Till death,I'll love you always.Hate my all you want.I deserve to be hated.Im just a loser who always screw up everything.I hope I'll be punished by Allah for my mistakes.